It's been awhile since I was on here last. I've been doing really good as far as mental health goes (minus the severe chronic secondary pain).

Besides that, things have been very difficult financially. I've got plenty of sacrament grown, but I'm still trying to pay for my other meds, kratom alkaloid pills (these work well for severe pain!), etc. Because of the cold weather, my chronic pain has been flaring up severely, plus there's some suspicious new symptoms going on in my health lately (severe thigh bone pain, strange bruises on hip within inches of the painful thigh bone but NO injuries, no appetite, increasing nausea, thyroid swelling, shortness of breath, etc.....there are other concerning symptoms).

I've got both of my regular doctors watching this, but I cannot shake this gut feeling that it's not "arthritis" (my PCPs first guess) and it's something more serious.

I went to the ER, and they did an ultrasound and X-rays on my right thigh, but there's no clots or anything showing.....although they won't tell you everything in the ER. You have to read the reports, etc.

I hope things get better for us all.

Hugs, mush love and light to y'all!!!!!!!!!!

"River Through My Soul"

Poetry flows like
A river through my soul.
The words are like sediment,
And the pieces are precious gold.

Words flow through my mind
As I pick out each piece.
Then I sort through them
To arrange my masterpiece.

My mind is my filter,
As my pen fills the scroll.
The words turn into poetry
Like a river through my soul.

Christina Eldridge-Nunn ©

September 8, 2022

Tomorrow is my birthday, but my birthdays have become traumatic over the years, because of people who are supposed to love & care for me go out of their way to hurt me on that day, so I'm feeling very low.

I'm trying to manifest better, but it's so hard when I don't get much positive energy from the people I live with. It's actually the main reason why I'm even seeing a psychiatrist in the first place and why I have severe depression. I wish certain people would get it already.....or do they just not care?

Thank God for the church sacrament, or I'm not sure I would still be here. I'm getting a BIG message that I seriously need to completely change the people I have close to me, but that would mean leaving everything I've ever known and just having my autistic son around.

I'm highly being called to go back to school: One is called Four Winds and it's a type of energy shamanic program, I think. That or the programs at MIU (Maharishi International University). Four Winds would allow me to get a certificate and I can always go on to the MIU degree programs later.
The only problem I have with this is the money. I'm going to keep trying to work through this via the church sacrament and through the Gaia Meditation app!

“The Timewarp of Parenthood"

From what I remember,
Just a short, long time ago,
I had a baby
And my life was all aglow.

I held the baby boy
Tight to my chest,
With his little head in my hand,
He started growing with the rest!

Meanwhile, I kept busy,
For my son was my whole life.
Because I was a new mother,
His life became joined with my life.

Then, one day I looked up
And I was looking at a young man.
In my heart, he's a baby,
In my physical world, he became a man.

By: Christina Eldridge-Nunn ©2024
September 25th, 2024

My lifetime theme song:
Can anyone else relate to the words in this song, especially other women?

https://youtu.be/CRJFpf_Plkc?si=AgwwEY1JSsqdCdG3

I've been realizing a LOT about myself, including who I am, and what I'm likely meant to do on this earth.
I've been undergoing a LOT of SERIOUS transformations, and I'm now at a crossroads in life. I'm not the same person I was, even just 1-2 years ago, and I continue to evolve and change.

It has been an almost magnetic-like "calling" of mine to study something in the realm of natural medicine, holistic medicine, Ayurvedic Wellness & Functional Wellness, and even shamanism.

There are specific programs that I'm extremely interested in:

One is MIU (Maharishi International University) and the second one is a shamanic program that's mostly on-line: https://thefourwinds.com/

As I look back at my life, I can clearly see that I was being led to natural healing, NOT westernized medicine at all. I never even considered those routes to get into true, actual healing because I bought into the nonsense that modern medicine is "all we have" and we'll all practically shrivel up and die if we're suddenly without it.

I've always wondered why I've had this overly-sensitive ability towards other people's energy fields. There has to be a purpose for all of this and I cannot help but follow wherever it leads me.

I'm looking for my PsiloVibe Church peeps!