Tomorrow is my birthday, but my birthdays have become traumatic over the years, because of people who are supposed to love & care for me go out of their way to hurt me on that day, so I'm feeling very low.

I'm trying to manifest better, but it's so hard when I don't get much positive energy from the people I live with. It's actually the main reason why I'm even seeing a psychiatrist in the first place and why I have severe depression. I wish certain people would get it already.....or do they just not care?

Thank God for the church sacrament, or I'm not sure I would still be here. I'm getting a BIG message that I seriously need to completely change the people I have close to me, but that would mean leaving everything I've ever known and just having my autistic son around.

I'm highly being called to go back to school: One is called Four Winds and it's a type of energy shamanic program, I think. That or the programs at MIU (Maharishi International University). Four Winds would allow me to get a certificate and I can always go on to the MIU degree programs later.
The only problem I have with this is the money. I'm going to keep trying to work through this via the church sacrament and through the Gaia Meditation app!