Hey all! Quick review of my first macro this past Monday. I ate half the chocolate bar (2g) on an empty stomach with coffee first thing in the morning. I had a big bottle of water and some crackers on hand to combat the nausea which helped. I had decided to go with the flow, not knowing how it would feel so i just wanted to let it do what it was going to. I watched several Bo Burnham comedy specials (he's my comfort content) and hung out with my cats. Had some mild visuals here and there, felt absolutely awesome all day, laughed a lot, and really enjoyed my bathroom ceiling texture lol.

Next time i will try to go into it a little more seriously, and see if i can learn anything. I rewatched the psilocybin episode of Change Your Mind on netflix and am thinking of trying a higher dose at another time to see if i can really LEARN something about myself and my life.

3 days later i still feel amazing (even after the stupid elecfion) im very even keeled and calm. Sooo grateful for all of you and this church!

I'm currently on a fast which means no sacrament until Monday or Tuesday. But as I sustain myself on nuts, water, and fruits I'm able to look back and see how far I've come. I think I've been living in a state of what's known as functional freeze. The sacrament is helping me to see myself and to calm down so I can function in society. But it's also causing me to separate from things and people that no longer serve on the path that I'm on. I'm reaching out in the hopes of adding value to the people and world I'm living in whether once upon a time I'd pay the recluse and pray that the world would pass me by. The word of the foreseeable future is participation and closed mouths don't get fed. It's it too late for me to dream to be a copywriter at 54? I still have time.